Love, Life & Loss
About Love, Life & Loss
I’m Louisa and I am a mum of 4! I have three of my beautiful babies with me and one angel baby.
I have given birth 4 times but I had 3 miscarriages after my first daughter at around seven weeks each time.
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So, I have been pregnant 7 times in the space of 8 years. After my miscarriages I was diagnosed with Lupus anticoagulant also known as antiphospholipid syndrome which meant I had to inject myself every day from six weeks of pregnancy, until around 6 weeks after giving birth. FYI I HATE NEEDLES!
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In my last pregnancy I suffered with hyperemesis (severe sickness, which caused me to be hospitalised). My cervix started to open so I had to have an emergency transvaginal cervical cerclage (a suture or stitch placed around the neck of the womb) at around 24 weeks into my pregnancy.
My pregnancy journey hasn’t been easy, and I have suffered immensely but I am grateful for it all and to be blessed with the babies I was able to bring home and the ones I couldn’t!
In April 2020 I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy Zion Esau Hendrickson. He was born prematurely, and he survived for 47 minutes.
That day broke me, and I will never be the same person again!
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I suffered PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress disorder) and anxiety. I remember feeling so lonely and helpless. I went into hospital thinking I had a water infection and I left without my baby, in the middle of a pandemic!
I’ve started this podcast in memory of my son and to try and give you a safe and comfortable place to tell your stories and for others to listen and learn.
Like so many others, I have this overwhelming desire to support this community I have now found myself a part of.
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I hope by hearing other people’s stories and maybe being brave and comfortable enough to tell yours, it will remind you, you have a voice and give you the opportunity to talk about your babies and loved ones.
I also hope this podcast will give others an opportunity to learn how to support their loved ones better.
I have always worked in support. I am trained in so many areas and I have heard such horror stories in my line of work, but nothing could prepare me for the loss of my son!
Baby loss is an entity that effects so many people and one of the hardest things for anyone to go through, yet it’s hardly talked about! That was the hardest thing for me to deal with, but not accept!
Baby loss is an entity that effects so many people!
So, I’ve created a space to talk about baby loss and break the taboo!!! Join us in talking about our babies and feel the love we have for them!
This will be my son’s legacy!